December 28th, 2024

Box top on hiatus my bobbins are turning my thread into spaghetti, if the new ones I'm buying don't fix this I will finally put my foot down and just buy a new sewing machine. I think the current one is aware of my contempt and is reacting to it.

A while ago I got this cookbook with a recipe for bao along with filling ideas. I didn't have what was needed for Char Siu so I figured if I waited for the holiday season I could use tamale pork as a replacement. Well today is the day and I have zero faith in myself. I'm no baker. Sure I like my little lava cake and candied lemon cake and banana bread but lets be real that's hardly baking. Cooking is an art with technical chemical components, it's as scientific as burning fabric to test if it's a natural fiber. Baking ( real baking) is all science. You need the exact ingredients and amounts and temps and it is hell. Why is it that all bread and bread-adjacent recipes expect you to own a Kitchen Aid? Am I mistaken or is bread not something we figured out before the industrial revolution? Why is it so difficult to find a recipe that assumes you'll be kneading by hand? If (When) this turns out poorly I'm going to pout in my bedroom and do nothing at all.

3:30PM

The tamale bao was fine. Like dense white bread. 100% my bad I'm sure i fucked up from the start with the yeast. Let it sit for too long or something. I believe I have only two options

Hold off on any more bread baking until I'm married to a wealthy woman, that way I can play stay-at-home trophy wife and spend her money while I re-embark on my journey
Get married to a (preferably wealthy) woman who likes to bake and will help me

December 24th, 2024

New top to be made ideally before the new year but realistically sometime after. Here's the half-assed sketch and link to the pattern

I'll be using this Cotton Dobby Woven Fabric , also from Mood. Currently they are having a closeout sale, I'll replace the link with a screenshot of the description if it ends up a dead end. The pattern asks for a silk type/light drapey fabric but I wanted a stiffer body without needing to bother with interfacing or whatever, so cotton it is! In my head I'm styling this with an untagged layered skirt I found at the thrift, in the end it's far more likely I'll end up wearing this with the black jeans from Target. _{it is 8:45AM why are people popping fireworks}

1:00PM

rather than put the ^ fabric in the wash and get started on making the top, I've switched focus to a swimsuit pattern I've had rotting in my head for a few months now. I couldn't be bothered to draw the blue floral fabric so I rummaged though the html to find the pic and threw it in

It's pretty pointless for me to make a swimsuit considering I don't live near the beach or a pool, and even if I did I also don't know how to swim. Alas, the hot cool twentysomething me I created in my head when I was 10 yearns for a cute one-piece to wear when me and my equally hot and cool friends dip into our trust funds so we can summer in the Florida Keys or Malibu or any of the other places I'm aware of in name only. I guess there does exsist a more realistic version of me who will eventually end up with a car and will bullshit some excuse to spend a day/weekend at Corpus, just so I can put on the swimsuit and stand at the shore never getting anything above the knees wet. _{my cat is ass off this small desk chair, my hand is the only thing keeping him on my lap. I'm typing one handed. poorly.}

December 23rd, 2024

Last year I was given an 18x24 Newsprint Pad from Blick, I've done nothing with it since. I wont be taking a drawing class until next fall at the longest / this summer at the shortest, so I figured I'll use up the paper with the charcoal I also wouldn't have touched until I was required to. Whenever I have nothing better to do I set up my little collapsible easel that my folks got me last christmas and I do a 30min class on Line Of Action. Mysteriously my shoulder and hip hurts as soon as I get started. My pain is reflected in my work

December 21st, 2024

To preface, for my degree I have to take 3 'Basic' classes, with my current life outlook I think I'll end up taking Printmaking/New Media/Photography. In a note compleatly unrelated to my future, I have

5 tubes of 250ml acrylic paint
4 tubes of 118,
20 set of 2floz acrylics
an 18 tub Himi set,
and some random watercolor set

It's hard to believe but I truly have no intrest in painting. So I've come up with a little chalange for me to use up at least all the acrylics. The watercolor and gouache I can see myself begrudgingly useing in life, but not so much the acrylics. This is going to suck but if I finish this with the half-formed timeline in my head I should have some new empty desk space before i take the Basics

Personal, 2024

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